feeling

Feeling..
We have to conduct our assembly and chose this song. Errr... kinda a high note to reach.. So confident but actually I'm not pretty familiar with the song, only know the chorus. khekhekhe! I dun even know the lyrics only know who is that girl da da da da.. But well, I sang with the children. Feeling a while but i was shaking actually.. Most of the high notes all over the places.. hahaha! Most importantly I enjoyed myself. Yelah tu.. Pacifying myself.. Next week, Lyn will sing.

Here's the meaningful lyrics:

Look at me, you may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday, it's as if I play a part
Now I see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
I am now, in a world where
I Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow, I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else, for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
There's a heart that must be free, to fly
That burns, with a need to know
The reason why, why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside...When will my reflection show
Who I am inside



And here is another balad song frm her that i like..

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Someday I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I want to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so I'm afraid to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

finally

You can say its a last minute thing but we managed to reserve a place. Simply Peranakan Cuisine @ Kampung Melayu Geylang Serai. The best choice coz there's a room for our parents to solat. Initially, we drove to Riverside Point to check at that Indonesian restaurant but they dont have that halal cert and next went to Holiday Inn Hotel , what's that restaurant? I cant recall. Really not familiar with these places. I dun usually dine in hotels. The place looks nice and they serve halal food and that was our first choice tentatively, $34++ per pax. We checked out Ritz Carlton thru a friend but my gawd! $58++ per pax! No surprise lah actually what dya expect from a 5 star hotel.. Another choice was the Choa Chu Kang Park restaurant but nolah, dined there before.. So finally, we went to Geylang and settled at Simply Peranakan Cuisine restaurant. Hehehe! Cheaper. $12.80++ per pax, reserved for 11 & we can jln2 after that window shopping for raya.. But I've hinted to hubby where to dine for our 2nd anniversary..

awaiting 14 Sept..

Baby Dany be turning a yr old soon.. still deciding the venue to hold the function-juz a small gathering with our family members.. invitations were already out via sms(like as if holding a grand function.hahah!) "Dany wld like to invite Uncle. . . . . . & Auntie. . . . . . to break fast together on Friday, 14th Sept 07. It's my Bday & your presence is a MUST!" Location will be confirmed later. Khekhe!

Gee.. Need to rakee the venue tomorrow.. Sumwhere at Riverside, maybe.. C lah if can book a plce or else come to worse Simpang Bedok or sumwhere in town anywhere we can break fast.. Its ok.. Dany ruggard.. Everything ok..

& not to forget he has a check-up appointment with the paediatrician @ KK hospital.

stress..& more stress..

back to work. a week holiday aint sufficient. i dun wanna worrrkkkk!!! but what choice do I have.. we're not financially stable yet & i dun dare to take the risk to quit even.. errr.. a full-time housewife? NOO!!! count me out! I'll feel like a useless good for nuthing earthling unemployed.. told hubby abt my plans if i decide to quit teaching and do sumthing else but hes abit reluctant not sure abt the security,stability and adaptability..err.. yup, im not pretty sure if i can adapt to another environment easily (HAHA! ya very funny, yane.. and yet wanna try sumthing new..) I can be pretty crappy at times, i know.. nvm, i still have ample of time to think abt it.. there are so many things that i wanna do.. still considering if I shd go for my degree.. hmm.. still contemplating if nuthg hinders i shall go for it 2009..

Its not as easy as I thawt staying by my own especially when theres no assistance at home. came back home no food. gotta do laundry and cleaning all by myself. arrgghhh! I hate doing laundry coz mum often do mine last time, khekhekhe.. padan muka! yaalahh.. suffering now and not gaining weight at all.. put tat aside and talk abt BILLS.. tho hubby settles most of those but i still feel the pinch too.. coz i settle the reno loan wch we loan frm his mummy.. ~sobsob~ I cant shop as before.. ~sobsob~ Its not easy to own a house. Finance department must be strong babe..

after a long leave & these sweet lil angels surprise me with...

Dany would never forget 22nd August 07.. His boil got worst and we decided to bring him to the hospital to remove it. The infection was caused by a slight tear in his rectum(he often forced himself to poo previously), feaces stuck in the tear and parse began to grow. Pretty bad coz the boil was fiercely red swollen.. But Dany is a strong boy.. he was councious 15 mins after the half an hour surgery super angry and agitated.. cried and cried that we thought he was in pain only to know that he was super hungry(wasnt fed for 5 hrs before the operation) gobble up biscuits and 6 slices of raisin bread.. and right after his tummy was filled, began to play as per normal.. the pics above was snapped the next morning.. he was his normal self as active as before or rather extra hyperactive.. ;p

& juz when I came back from CCL....

How sweet and angelique they are.. 4 days that I wasnt in school & they gave me a sweet surprise immediately I entered the classroom.. "Mdm Aryane, you sit we have a surprise for you!" Tho its a short presentation but I was touched by their sweet surprise..